pretty much

My mom says she sees guys staring at me sometimes... but I never notice. They couldn't possibly be looking at me, could they? I guess I'm just oblivious. I don't care, though. I can't even keep friends (if they were ever friends to begin with). Why would I want to attempt a relationship? When people get to know me, they don't like me.

When I was a kid, I had a childhood "friend" who would always play with me, but when her actual friend was available to play with her, she would avoid me as much as possible and play with the other girl instead. That happened again with another girl in school at around the same time. She told me her friend wouldn't be friends with her anymore if she was friends with me. She even told the teacher I was following her around on the playground when I wasn't. Surprisingly, the teacher had seen everything and was actually on my side and told them I wasn't following them, which was true. It really hurts when people use me.

Sorry, I kind of went into story time. I'll try not to do that again... though I can't promise I won't. 

Do I act like this?    I feel like I have sometimes, but I try to get along with people.. sort of... 

Whenever people suddenly tell me "We're friends!" with barely knowing me... I tell them I don't have friends. It's probably not a nice thing to do, but I'm not really a nice person anyway. I don't like people lying to me. I feel like people use the word "friends" too loosely.